I really wish that he had stayed the same. i wish he didnt lie. i wish he didnt need everyone to love and like him so much. i wish he didnt let every little thing get to him. i wish that 4 years ago that i realized what i realized in september. i wish i could change what happened. because now when i have a bad day, i dont have him to go to . i cant IM, call, text him….i just have the memory and then get even more upset. but i know i cant go back. he’s changed too much. i cant do that again. it broke my heart to hurt you but you HAVE to realize that you’ve changed…for the worse. ive heard so many lies from you in the past few months and i never thought you capable of it. really!? REALLY!? why can’t i get you out of my head. yeah maybe i love you. never mind maybe. i do. but i cant do anything about it. why? because you decided that it would be cool to change your life for the worse. i wish i could save you because i miss and need my best friend bac! k…i still think about you all the time and i pray for the day when you’ll realize what you did to yourself and you fix it. i know i cant because i’ve tried. you dont listen. i could go on for ever about this and i probably have tried to end 3 times here but theres just so much more to write. but thats just how it always was with us. theres no perfect answer or solution. theres always butting of heads. its always the wrong time. and i really wish it wasnt like this. i miss you.