It kills me every day that I don’t know if you miss me. And that we never met. And how my life fell apart, and continues to downfall. How I think if i don’t take all these pills and liquids the doctors have me on.. That I’ll be in the hospital in a year. How my mother is losing the use of her hands and feet, and still will only care about me, and not take herself to see a doctor. And most of all, it kills me how no one is around anymore to help me through it all. I deeply apologize. For all we put each other through, just to wind up back in the same place we were before we met. I hope I helped change your life, if only by one small degree. I think I helped to make you a better person, and vice versa. I hope you keep your head held high. You are special. And you deserve to be happy. Good luck in life; I wish you the best.