K. The best way to get in touch with me is via twitter or my personal tumblr (mytumblrname.tumblr.com/ask) or just a text message via the last number we spoke on. I no longer have your phone number so let me know it’s you. Wishing you the best, xoi.
Go your own way, I’ll be with you. Make mistakes and I’ll forgive you. Home is waiting here for you when you return.
K. Be strong. You’ve got a long life ahead of you. It’ll be filled with good and bad times. Just remember to live in the good and never forget it, learn from the bad always with a smile. Without the bad, the good would just be average, dull, and boring! I’m happy to hear from you, I figured (hoped) I would sooner or later. I haven’t forgotten you, I haven’t ran away. My brain just convinced my heart it was best to stop calling and just let you live your life, in hopes that one day maybe a few or many years from now our paths will cross once again. I’m sure in another life time we’ve already enjoyed a long happy life together. If you ever consider actually going on your trip (and I suggest you do, even if it’s not to here.) I’m a phone call away. Be well. Be Happy. P.S. Happy Belated Birthday
Two confessions:
1. I’m not ready to let you go, so I stalk your wordpress blog in hopes that you mention me and how we were once important to each other. I really miss you, my illegitimate sister.
2. I think I’m falling in love with you, which really sucks because you live so far away from me and I have a girlfriend. I seriously want to meet you in person, but fear that everything I worked hard for will come undone in a couple of seconds.
Sometimes I feel I can’t relate to anyone and that’s why I’m an introvert. It’s like I’m at the zoo, just watching people.
When I was about twelve, I realized I had this grudge on my mom because she put me in this world. This world where jealousy, bickering, death, wars, and hate exist. I know this is tacky, but I wish someone would’ve told me ‘Hey, this isn’t easy’
When I look at you i want to trust you. But, i know i can’t and I’m having this ongoing battle with myself because my heart needs you and I can’t help but love how our bodies collide. && i hate how deep inside i know the truth, i know I’m not the only one in your life. I’m another girl who thinks this of you. But baby, please remember there is no guarantee I’ll stay forever
When you kiss me on the forehead and tell me how much you love me, i sneak a peak at the clock because I can’t wait to leave.
I really wish that he had stayed the same. i wish he didnt lie. i wish he didnt need everyone to love and like him so much. i wish he didnt let every little thing get to him. i wish that 4 years ago that i realized what i realized in september. i wish i could change what happened. because now when i have a bad day, i dont have him to go to . i cant IM, call, text him….i just have the memory and then get even more upset. but i know i cant go back. he’s changed too much. i cant do that again. it broke my heart to hurt you but you HAVE to realize that you’ve changed…for the worse. ive heard so many lies from you in the past few months and i never thought you capable of it. really!? REALLY!? why can’t i get you out of my head. yeah maybe i love you. never mind maybe. i do. but i cant do anything about it. why? because you decided that it would be cool to change your life for the worse. i wish i could save you because i miss and need my best friend bac! k…i still think about you all the time and i pray for the day when you’ll realize what you did to yourself and you fix it. i know i cant because i’ve tried. you dont listen. i could go on for ever about this and i probably have tried to end 3 times here but theres just so much more to write. but thats just how it always was with us. theres no perfect answer or solution. theres always butting of heads. its always the wrong time. and i really wish it wasnt like this. i miss you.
Dear Mister @^#&#$(*%
I have just admitted it to myself and a few people that I love you. Why do I love you? I have no idea, I hate you, I don’t wanna see your face ever again. Why do I hate you? Because you broke my heart, and messed with my friends. You don’t deserve my love, you had it once, but now you lost it. How do I know I love you? I still care about you, I can’t get you out of my head, even now that I’ve found someone else I still can’t seem to get you out. I hate feeling this guilt, cause I love you and love my boyfriend at the same time. I feeling jealous every time I see you with another girl. It’s crazy, I’ve forgotten you once, I could probably do it again, right? I hope I can. I can’t live like this. You used to be my best friend then you hurt me, and broke my heart. I can’t live like this. I need you in my life, but you keep walking out. I always think, do you still think of me too, every time you see me I see you stare, why do you stare? Why do you look at me ever!
y time I’m with my boyfriend? Why did you “talk” to one of my friends that people said is just like me? Why do you do those things you do? I hate you, I HATE YOU! I FCKING HATE YOU! But I love you. Ugh, I hope you know who you are.
-#&^)@&
